Sometimes I wonder why God called me to write. Yes, words do come to me easily. Revelation? Not so much. There was a time when my heart would overflow with these amazing inspirations and sentiments that could have only come from God because I could never recognize myself in the writings. In those moments, it seemed like my only task was to make sure that His words didn’t get lost in translation between my mind/heart and the paper. I still have those moments although admittedly because of my own “stuff” they are not as frequent as they used to be. Now, on some days, I can stare at my computer screen for hours and the only thing that is revealed to me is my painful inadequacy.
BUT… (and I guess here is one of those golden moments) there is one thing that I do know for sure. It is in the middle of my uncertainty; in the midst of my most obvious humanity that I’m the most pliable. I’m the most useful to God and His Kingdom purposes and agendas when I’m at my most broken.
I think it is because the next time He allows me to have one of those awesome revelatory moments of clarity, I can be absolutely sure that it all comes from HIM!